The Struggle

I have been struggling over the past year trying to build my business. Obviously Blogster was suppose to be part of that and while it was fun, I could not integrate it into our business.

What do we do? What do we do?
I have a business broker in NYC that I work with and while I am not actively selling my business he is a great sounding board (Harvard MBA and all). Sorry Florida, but this is something I miss down here more than anything. Mental/business stimulation. I had a 30 minute conversation with Matt a few weeks back, 3 or 4 emails back and forth and I think I have more direction and enthusiasm for business now than I have had in months, if not years.

Back in the day, whenever that day was, we would go out drinking after work and talk business, ideas, building, motivation ... but whatever they were I always felt like I was the one who had to learn from the people I hung out with, that I work along side of. That motivated me. I don't get that where I am now. I don't get anyone motivating me, challenging me or pushing me. It is difficult and the one thing I miss more than anything about NY.

Back to the point of this post, what do we? We are a marketing company. Not a security software company, but a marketing company. We sell stuff online! I lose that focus now and again and that 30 minutes pushed me and focused me again.

Again, not meaning disrespect to the people I hang out with but I am by far the smartest of them all. They come to me when they have questions, when they need advice. And anyone who knows me knows I am not the most supportive person in world but that doesn't stop people. But I have experience and I am smart.

Andy, Mario, Matt, Stu, my brother ... all guys I use and to some degree still do talk business with and all are 10 times smarter than I am. But that is what motivates me to succeed.

I lost it but I feel it coming back. I feel it coming back. Thanks Matt.

I know this is about as unfocused a blog I have ever written but I am a little unsure of myself right now but that will go away. Trust me.

Blog on ...